ChaosticSoul

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Fuck You Too by ChaosticSoul, literature

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Fuck You Too

I thought we were friends, stupid, I know. Can I blame the distance? You have moved. Out of state, out of mind? It sounds false when my best friends live across the country. They don’t make me feel like shit, don’t act like I’m being oh-so-inconsiderate when I ask something simple. Can I say I’m surprised? If I want to lie, I can claim I was blindsided. But in thinking about it, I’m not surprised. It was expected. There wasn’t effort on either side, I know I’m partially to blame, but at least I listened to your problems, at least I tried, but I’m tired of trying when I have friends who giv

64 MB by ChaosticSoul, literature

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64 MB

It’s huge and dark and I reach out to touch it timidly, in awe, because I’ve never seen one so big. The ridges stand out as my fingers run over that familiar hardness, as excitement rushes through my body, my heart pounding in my chest as my digits twitch, aching for action. Push it in, and I gasp as my world lights up focusing on each moment, never wanting this tingling pleasure deep inside to end. Ah, that nostalgia and the confidant knowledge that bigger is better.

I Like Big by ChaosticSoul, literature

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I Like Big

character flaws in my characters and I cannot lie, you other writers can’t deny, that when a story comes around with a new character and those twisted traits all in your face you get sucked in, don’t wanna put down the book cause you notice that character’s fucked. I always like traits that cause problems and rising tension, characters that sabotage themselves, rash decisions that dash their dreams, regrets and hopes that drive them to the end, be it good or bad, just or erroneous, because I like my characters to be imperfect, just like me.

To You by ChaosticSoul, literature

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Just 'Casue They Say That They're Friends by ChaosticSoul, literature

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Just 'Casue They Say That They're Friends

She’s suicidal and it’s all your fault, even though you didn’t do anything but try to support her when she was sad. You were leading her on, despite the fifteen mentions of having a fiancée in the last two days because three years ago she mentioned the massive crush she had on you and you should have known it wouldn’t change no matter how firmly you shot her down. Because you were nice, because you put up with her selfish demands and tried to preserve the friendship. You didn’t get mad when she fucked over the character you had worked on with magic cures for all flaws, because obviously you need a per

Hit n Run by ChaosticSoul, literature

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Hit n Run

She’s him. Laying there while I’m helpless to help. There’s a fiancée, plans of a wedding, best friends. Will she be like him, and leave too? Will she leave us aching, wondering, regretting? I hadn’t gone over to see him earlier that day, when we had meant to. And then it was too late. “I didn’t talk to her this morning, I was too tired,” my father whispered on the way to the hospital. Please God, not again. I’m so tired of sadness.

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Say Something AU by ChaosticSoul, literature

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Say Something AU

Vritra knew instantly when it happened. There was a deep pain in his chest, and the link that had been closed for so long opened with a flood of foreign fear that swept the crimson-eyed director away. He clutched his desk as he tried to figure the source of the fear—and of the pain that was growing deeper in his body. There was a cold feeling in his limb and he swallowed thickly, clenching his eyes shut. “Naoya!” he screamed into that mental link. For a moment there was nothing, not recognition, and then something that did surprise Vritra—a strange peace came over the fear. “Vritra. It . . . it’s you. The

The Gift by ChaosticSoul, literature

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The Gift

“Orphie! I don’t know what to get!” Tugging at the omega’s arm, the pup whined as he looked at the stores. He had asked the alpha if he could have Orpheus take him to the human mall, wanting to find something good for his daddy for Christmas, but he hadn’t found anything yet. They’d looked at ties and watches and even some movies and music, but he still hadn’t found anything. “Um, well, you’ve shot down all of my ideas Aiden. So I’m not sure.” The older male gave an apologetic smile, feeling at a loss of what to get. “Maybe you could get him something from Hickory Farms

The Necklace by ChaosticSoul, literature

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The Necklace

Could he feel any more out of place? Remiel had never been in a jewelry store before, but here he was, awkwardly looking at jewelry that had one or two more zeros than he thought was necessary. Tugging at his hood he let his eyes flicker over one piece and then another. There was a couple chatting over the rings, keeping the attendant’s attention, but Remiel was glad for that. He wasn’t sure what he’d say when the clerk came to him. He wasn’t used to being in places like this. Reaching up, his fingers curled around the necklace he wore, squeezing it. Warmth flooded his thoughts as he recalled the sweet words when Yuic

Runaway by ChaosticSoul, literature

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Runaway

Fear wasn’t an uncommon emotion. Remi would be more than willing to admit he was a coward. He didn’t confront things, he ran from them. He ran his entire life: ran away from home, ran from fights, and ran from anyone who got to close. After the first time, fleeing his home, it became so easy; easier still when he began popping the pills to block those hellish visions that crept through his mind when he closed his eyes. He had become accustom to the side effects by this point. The chemical taste that lingered in his mouth even when he woke up, persistent heartburn, the pounding pain in his head that felt like something was splitti

The Call by ChaosticSoul, literature

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The Call

The sun was setting, Shith could barely see the reds and oranges streaking across the sky from where he lingered in the shadows of the forest. The darkness and shade within was where he spent his days, and only during the night did he roam—though never too far. A soft song, almost hypnotic, was coming from the unnaturally pale man as he began walking from the dense trees that made up the forest towards the desolate graveyard. It was where he spent most of his time, finding a cold comfort in the gravestones and solitude. Fog began rolling in, thickening and surrounding the graveyard and Shith both. Soft, pale fingers trailed along the

The Knife by ChaosticSoul, literature

A Good Match by ChaosticSoul, literature

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A Good Match

“Thank you for doing this for me Jaune.” The rich voice made a small hurt well up in Jaune’s chest, but he ignored it, giving his own customary smile when he was around Thompson. “I couldn’t trust anyone else with this. I wish I could go, but with being so tied up in the capital . . . someone should be there, so she needn’t travel alone. She’s already made such a trip to reach me, it’s not right to make her travel by herself anymore.” “Of course. You’re my dear friend.” The smile doesn’t falter as the shorter of the two takes the letter Thompson had written. Jaune

R/1036 Kore by ChaosticSoul, literature

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R/1036 Kore

For a long time, I waited. From my birth, until that fateful day, I was alone. I felt as if I was locked away from everyone, everything. Somewhere deep down I was conscious that there was an outside world, but it was a foreign thing to me. I never minded the unyielding dark I existed in, because I didn’t know anything else. Once day, it changed. I felt a shift outside me, a faint ghost of a touch that while uncommon, was not unheard of. There was some muffled sound, but I knew not what it was, nor did I care. They came rarely, these peculiarly pattered sounds that were so soft and strange and never meant anything, so it was a simple t

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Nov 4, 2014

(below ismy obnoxious holiday ad) ~xmasballs01plz (https://www.deviantart.com/xmasballs01plz):iconxmasballs02plz::iconxmasballs01plz::iconxmasballs02plz: :iconcolorfulsparklesplz::iconcolorfulsparklesplz::iconcolorfulsparklesplz::iconcolorfulsparklesplz: ::iconsantalaplz: Yes, It is in fact that time of year! Time for Artist's to shamelessly pimp their crap out in hope someone will value it as a Christmas gift idea :icongiftplz: :iconfabulousplz: :iconfacepalmplz::iconsaysplz: "Bloody hell, man. I'm still coasting high on the fumes of Halloween" I know dear child. I know. However if you've been breathing for at least 10 years, you should know that Christmas in all it's ob

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About ChaosticSoul

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Artist // Student // Literature

Aug 26, 1988
United States
Deviant for 17 years
She / Her

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My Bio

Welcome to my page!

I am an aspiring writer & failure of a college student. I recently began to reuse my deviantart account, using it to post my fiction I have written both for my class and for pleasure. If you read one of my stories and enjoy it, please comment or fave so I know what I’m writing is appealing to others. On the opposite hand, if you notice any major failings please let me know! I want to improve.

I mainly am planning on writing short stories revolving around my characters who are a group of psychics. As I can’t draw, images of them can be found here, tehchibipanda.deviantart.com/g…. I’m hoping to improve my writing to the point where I can write a short story collection on them and the Academy.

It is my intention to attempt and write or upload one piece of fiction a day, whether I am particularly proud of it or not. I’m not sure how well this will work, but I’m hopeful and I’ve been able to keep up with it so far. You will notice however, because of this, most of what I write is flash fiction (under 1000 words). This is not a rule however, and I will upload longer things. The main reason for the lack of that so far is I’m incredibly lazy about formatting my longer stories so they will be easily read on here. ^^;

Requests: I have no problem attempting to do requests if you so wish. I will not demand anything in return, but llamas, points, art or more exposure would be welcomed (if you enjoy what I made of course). Keep in mind I might not come up with just what you had in mind, and if you make a request expect me to ask questions to clarify points if needed.

All art I use is property of

(unless otherwise stated) and is used with permission. Please check her out, she’s a great artist!

Favourite Visual Artist

tehchibipanda

Favourite Movies

How to Train Your Dragon, Lion King, Monty Python, POTC, Repo! the Genetic Opera, Taken, The Cat Returns, Naussica, Sweent Todd, Phantom of the Opera 25th Anniversary, West Side Story, Airplane!

Favourite TV Shows

World's Dumbest, FBI Files, Police Squad, Sherlock, MLP:FiM, Avatar the Last Airbender, Adventure Time

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Seabound, Vanessa Carlton, Daft Punk, Electric Six, Natasha St. Pier, Trans-Siberian Orchestra, Muse, Shoji Meguro

Favourite Books

Hot Zone, Howl's Moving Castle, Narnia, 101 Dalmations, Without Reservations

Favourite Writers

EA Poe, Jorge Luis Borges, Shakespeare, J L Langley, Thich Nhat Hanh

Favourite Games

Nier, Shin Megami Tensei (any games, though especially Persona 3/4 and Devil Summoner), Koei's Warrior series, Borderlands, Tales of Graces f, Dragon Age, Dragon Age 2, Fallout: New Vegas, Taels of Graces f, Tales of Xillia, Toukiden

Favourite Gaming Platform

N64, PS3, PSV

Tools of the Trade

Laptop, cheap notebooks, lots of pens--preferably uni-ball vision elite, gelly roll or orange pens. I like to use pends that aren't black--everythign I turn in for class now is typed, so I can use whatever pen colors I want! It's pure freedom~!

Other Interests

Reading, writing, Persona, video games, sleeping, cuddling.

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ChaosticSoul

Oct 28, 2014

Wow I haven't said anything on here in a long time

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I've been super busy lately! So! First things first! My computer is back to working! It's actually been working for like...a month now? I think? I love it dearly. I'm not sure how much life it really has left, but it's working for now and that's all I need. I've been super duper busy lately though, like I said. On the writing front: I've written my first and second story for my fiction class, and already started revisions on the first (I'll get my critiques back this Thursday, and I'll probably spend Halloween revising it). I'm going to be submitting to a fiction magazine this week too! Kinda nervous, but I probably won't be published anywa

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ChaosticSoul

Aug 27, 2014

My Computer's all fucked up yo

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My computers real fucked up atm. It won't run internet browsers, it barely works word and anything else is a wild guess if it will work or not. Plus it keeps freezing and crashing. My dad and I have been trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with it, but we've been having no luck so far. So, yea. Hopefully it will be working soon, cause I miss my Internets horribly. Life without youtube is a bleak one indeed. Also, my birthday was pretty okay. I didn't get to dye my hair or finish watching the movie I wanted to watch, but my gf's bro was over and s owe had a pretty good time. My 'best friend' forgot my birthday though, so that was mak

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ChaosticSoul

May 21, 2014

Moribund and stuff

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So, Moribund has been deleted. Not that anyone seemed too attached, I don't think anyone really read it. I've been considering deleting a lot of my stories from here actually. The reason isn't becasue I'm bitter or upset that no one reads my stuff, I don't really care. But I plan to try and submit Moribund to magazines/contests now that I've finished it, and it's good not to have your stuff floating around online if you're gonna do that. So I might delete a few others for the same reason. Also considering deleting my poems becasue of horrible. I've been doing alright. I still have two more weeks of school, but I've pretty much finished all m

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Happy Birthday

Thanks~

OOH HAPPY BIRTHDAY

or try for it to be happy, at least ;; I know you said you weren't the biggest on birthdays. BUT I LAV YOU OKAY BE HAPPPYYYY

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ChaosticSoul

Aug 27, 2014

Haha, thanks! I had an alright birthday, and had some good times hanging with my gf and her bro. That was fun.

A-M-A-P

Aug 10, 2014

Would be cool if you looked at my work and let me know what you think ?! Oh, and I sent you a Llama because I'm awesome like that, hehe

ChaosticSoul

Aug 27, 2014

Sorry its taken me forever to see this! My computers currently messed up so I havent been online in a while! I wouldn't mind looking at your work at all, is there anything in particular you'd like me to take a look at?

ucfgirl123

Apr 13, 2014

Thanks for the fav